did a bit of self analysis sometime this weekend and i figured the reason i have thrown myself into Garou-crush/fandom with such abandon was to take my mind off the whole WTC tragedy. before i was in crush-mode i was walking around and i felt like something was squashing anything happy out of me. felt like someone had a clamp on my head or something…it wasnt a headache as such…..just a pressure on my head. and i could just not be happy. and with the tv the way it was – non-stop news streams – it was making it worse. and even though i decided to blog only happy stuff from before last saturday i was still feeling awful.

so having a new crush was a bit of a change. when i go into full-on crush mode i get somewhat hyper. and my brain goes fuzzy and i cant think of much other than the object of my affection. so i have been in super-hyped-up-crush-mode since last monday. as you may have noticed….

doesnt mean i have forgotten what happened. just means when i get down too much i have to blitz my mind on Garou stuff for a few hours to feel better.

i am sure the crush will only last a while….my record is 2 and a half years on a famous person. i was 12-14. 🙂