hmm – well i was having a lovely evening. after work i went and saw lord of the rings again and when i get home for no apparent reason james decides he’s gonna start going off at me. like he has any right…and his life is so much better than mine. so we had a huge screaming match and i am hoping he is never coming back. EVER.
i wish mum and dad were here. they’d at least tell emma to keep him away for a bit or at least away from me. i hate arguements…and this wouldnt have happened if they were here.
knowing my luck the little fucker will be back in a few days and i will have to put up with his shit again. i am the only person he acts like that to. jason my brother thinks he’s a great guy. my parents think he is tolerable. but he is always a little fuckhead to me. i guess i’m just special like that huh?

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at least i didnt start crying while we were fighting. usually when i argue i get all tensed up and cant speak and i get frustrated and start crying…….i was crying for a bit afterwards though. anyways – he’s finally gone home.
before just after we had the big arguement he was strolling out the door and trying to give me one final serving and i said something back and he went a bit nuts and punched the door. i havent gone to look at it but he supposedly has broken it somewhat.
it takes a lot of shit before i decide do not like a person and lucky james – tonite he has finally reached that point. i’m not speaking to him again.
though if james and emma stay together i may have to at some point…..but for now i’ve had enough.